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Eating For Comfort

Emotional eating

Late at night when the children are in bed, asleep. I want to eat.

I may have a bowl of cereal that reminds me of shared cereal bowls with my brother as a child.  I may make a batch of buttered popcorn that reminds me of eating popcorn with my family on Sunday nights watching The Ed Sullivan Show. I may eat a bowl of strawberries with whipped cream that reminds me of living in the Santa Cruz mountains in California.

Emotional eating.

I am not really hungry. Okay, I am not hungry at all. But, I want to eat something. I want to remind myself of someone I love. I want to remind myself of a happy time before my parents lived in separate houses and my mom had  a new last name. I want to remember a place that I lived  with a creek in the backyard and a best friend an eight minute walk away up a steep hill.

Tonight when the lights are turned out and the house is asleep I will  remember that whoever comes to Him will never go hungry, and whoever believes in Him will never go thirsty.  The empty place I try to fill with food can only be filled with Him.

About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

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  • Rebecca Ufford

    I love this, Pamela. You reach and and pull me in and by the time I get to the end, my eyes are wet…I’ll meditate on this today. (But why didn’t you mention putting dead bugs in soup to remind you of your wonderful trip to Thailand? Not same…)

  • I relate to this so strongly. Getting hunger needs met at the source of what I am really hungry for…changes everything! I clicked on the links and am glad you included them as they echoed your points. Thoughtful.

  • margaretsmn

    Emotional and real! Thanks for sharing.

  • berdeane

    I’m glad there are some happy memories for you before we lived in separate houses & I had a new last name. We must have done something right. Popcorn is always a happy memory, remember our suppers of popcorn in Japan???

    • Lots of happy memories. I remember eating popcorn in Japan.

  • Very thoughtful slice! Thank you for sharing.

  • luckygurl

    I really identified with this! So honest to ask, “What do I really want?” when eating… Recently I came across the acronym H.A.L.T. I’ve been trying to remember to ask myself whether I’m Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired before I eat. Usually it’s Tired!! 🙂 Have you read the book Women, Food, and God? I found it really insightful, and I feel like she talks about this kind of memory eating…

    • I will have to remember to H.A.L.T. before I eat late at night. Thank you for the book suggestion.

  • I will remember your writing the next time I want to eat something late at night! The truth, there is something and someone a lot more important than the late night snack!

  • Food is a powerful memory trigger. I love your connection to faith at the end.