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I will not worry.

I know it says in the bible not to worry. God knows how many hairs I have on my head, and he knows if a bird falls. I have at least twenty less hairs this morning, from pulling out a knot. And God knows that. He is so smart. I am thankful to be taken care of. And I know that I can be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power, because we sing that at church.

But.

I don’t know what I am supposed to do if I don’t worry. What am I suppose to do while I wait to get the results from the mole biopsy?.

My friend told me to do today – today. She said,” Do Thursday when Thursday comes. You can sit and worry or you can focus on today. Write. Shut the cupboard doors. Pick up. Unpack a box.”

I washed the kitchen floor, loaded the dishwasher, make pancakes and mashed potatoes. I took care of today. And tomorrow when I wake up, I will take care of that day.

I will wake up tomorrow morning and smile. I will start with today.

I will smile now. I will not worry.

Now to clean the mirrors.

About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

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  • Jaana

    Hoping that your wait is now over! I have found basic chores to be a good remedy for waiting as they never seem to end! Look out your window, your sunshine should be extra bright this morning because of your clean windows (no matter what else is happening in life)!

  • I am an unproductive worrier, but from now on I’ll try to take your advice and do something constructive instead of worrying. For you, I will be praying for good results and for peace inside, too.Keep us posted…

  • I say the opposite. Embrace the worry, take it on.
    Put it on your back like a sleepy toddler, wrap your arms around those sweaty legs that are curling by your hips and take a walk. Go where you want to go. And when that toddler wakes up, and nuzzles you in the neck, start talking. Tell your worry a story, a story about taking a sweaty toddler for a walk on summer night. Tell that toddler all about your world, walk that worry into the ground. Pretty soon, you’ll feel the slump and you’ll know you can take that toddler home and you both can plop into bed and face another day.

  • Nanc

    I’m a worrier, and also a prayer warrior…for me the hardest is waiting for the Dr. news. One of the things that really helps me is occupying my brain fully…and that is why I love work. It has taken me through the rough times. I will lift a prayer right now for you…that the biopsy comes back clean. xo nanc

  • Marika

    I like the timer idea. I think it’s normal to worry, and sometimes what we resist, persists. I wonder if you could welcome your worry as just one of many emotions. “Hello, worry. Have a seat alongside gratitude. Let’s go do the dishes.”. I’m sorry you have to worry, but I love the way you’re reflecting about it in your writing…

  • Keep on traveling and take a deep breath! Sending prayers your way.

  • Robin Patrick

    Pamela, I have spent way too much of my minutes on earth worrying. My counselor encourages me to “stay in the moment.” And if I can’t do that she says to literally set a time limit and allow myself to think through what is worrying me. James says not to worry but then I read David’s writings in the Psalms and he certainly worries! But he did what you are doing; he put it into words and directed it to our Lord. And that helps us recreate the steps we have trod to find our faith in the first place. You’re doing good, girl.
    And I will lift you up too.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you for your prayers Robin. I like the time limit idea. Set the timer, worry, and then when it beeps stop.

  • Michelle

    Easier said then done, right? Hang in there and know that whatever the results, then you move forward with a plan. God knows. He knows about the mole. May He provide you with the needed peace and wisdom in the days to come.

    • pamelahodges

      Yes, easier said then done. Thank you for your prayers. I was up at three today, washed the kitchen floors and paid the bills. I will at least have a clean house.

  • “I am thankful to be taken care of.” A wonderful truth. I am thankful I can pray for you, to the One who cares for you.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you for your prayers. One day at a time. I look forward to seeing the sun rise today.

  • Pamela,I am thinking of you and praying for you-I like the idea to stay busy and not let worry take over-

    • pamelahodges

      I washed the floors this morning. No blue crayon on mine, just apple juice and dog drool. Thank you for your prayers.

  • I was hoping for an update today. I’m sorry you haven’t received any news yet, Pamela.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Stacey. At least my house is getting clean while I wait.

  • Oh, I would imagine that it is so hard to wait. I am glad that you have a friend encouraging you and helping you to process it all. Here’s to plenty to keep your mind busy and a smile on your face.

    • pamelahodges

      I am very thankful for my friends advice. Smiling today, and cleaning my house. Thank you for your encouragement.

  • Rebekah Crill

    You’re awesome and in my prayers. May God grant you peace in everything!

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Rebekah. I have a smile, peace, and clean kitchen floors.

  • elsie

    You have a smart friend. You cannot change what it is by worrying. When you know the results you can create a plan of action, until then live in the day. I am praying for you that the mole is just a mole with no bad parts.

    • pamelahodges

      Elsie, thank you for your encouragement, and your prayers. I will live today, and deal with tomorrow when it comes.

  • You have to be an excellent worrier to have it be effective. So as much as I know I’d like to worry, and perfect it even, it never is as effective as giving it to God to handle. I’ll pray for you – for the test results AND that you would be able to give it to God. He’s not worried.

    • pamelahodges

      I wonder if God ever sleeps? Does He get tired? I often forget to give my problems to God, I will sit and stew for hours, days, weeks, before I remember to pray. Thank you for your prayers. I love the line. He’s not worried. Thank you.

  • Worry is human. Worry results when we realize we have no control. It interrupts the peace God has for you. “We know who holds the future, we know who holds our hand.” God’s spirit within us gives us power to overcome our fleshly failings. When we can’t, God can. Also, sharing your burdens with others allows them (us) to lift you up in prayer.

    You have a wise friend.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Shelley for your encouragement and prayers. I will not worry. I will smile and keep cleaning my house, read to my kids, and walk the dog.