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This afternoon, when I was cleaning out my closet, I found a magnet. The magnet had one word on it.


A little word laying  beside my black velvet sling back shoes that I have worn only once. I looked up the definition of the word.  But can be a conjunction, a preposition, an adverb and a noun.  I am thinking of the word but as a conjunction, where it  is used to introduce something that contrasts with what has already been said.

I am an unshelled peanut  with no nuts inside. I am hollow. I have no value. From the outside I look like all the other peanuts in the bag. Brown, ridged, covered in salt.  I am not the same as the other peanuts. I am hollow. I sit in the back of my closet behind the black cashmere coat my cousin gave me. I don’t move my eyes. I am frozen. I hold my breath. No one can see me. I am hollow.


I hear King David  “For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.”


I breathe.

I am not hollow.

I will put the magnet on the fridge to remind me of the truth.  There is a word that can be used as a conjunction to contrast what has already been said or thought. Negative to positive.












About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

You are an artist. Yes, you are. Really.

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  • God does give us value and makes us wonderful works BUT you are not hollow or invisible at all.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Elsie.

  • writekimwrite

    I have felt this way, hollow, empty
    it is not the truth
    Keep standing on the solid rock
    Sending prayers to you my sister-in-Christ

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you for the big
      and thank you for the prayers.

  • Wonderful. Thanks for checking out my first little story (story-ette?)!

    • pamelahodges

      I love to read your writing. Looking forward to more stories, and vivid dialog.