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The frog in my headlights

 

The frog hopped in front of my van as my headlights came around the corner. It was dark. No streetlights. Did the frog think it was morning?  Was the frog trying to cross the road?

I had to stop. How could I drop my daughter off at  a church program where she is memorizing bible verses,  learning to be kind, and then drive over a frog?  I picked up the frog and placed him in the grass  on the side of the road  he had hopped from. As I drove away, I thought to myself, “I am so helpful. I saved a frog’s life.” Then I realized that I didn’t help the frog get to  where he wanted to go. I didn’t take him to the other side of the road. I didn’t help him cross the road. I put him back where he started.

 

I am the frog.

I have roads I want to cross.  Obstacles to overcome.

I keep putting myself back on the side of road where I started.

I want to go back and find the frog and apologize.

“Excuse me Frog. Are you the frog that was trying to cross the road last week?  Remember the white van?  The lady with the camera?  The lady that put you back where you started?  Well, that was me. I’m sorry I didn’t help you to the other side of the road.”

I want to apologize to myself.

“I am sorry I do not believe in you. I am sorry I believe the lies you heard as a child.

I am sorry I keep you from crossing the road.”

I quote Philippians 4:13 to my friends. I cheer them on. ” You can do this! You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.”

I believe my friends can do all things.

I do not believe  in myself.

Some days all I can do is click the end of my pen.

It is raining outside.

I will go and find the frog.

We will cross the road together.

I can do all things.

I  will believe.

I will try.

 

 

 

 

About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

You are an artist. Yes, you are. Really.

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  • Pamela – Loved your post. Loved your poem. And I’m so thankful you are letting others in on your journey. I’m sure it will minister to many.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you so much Anne. I appreciate your comments.

  • I love this post! Great analogy of how we often hold ourselves back.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Joan. I never did find the frog again. I hope he made it across.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Joan. Yes, sometimes we just walk back to where we started on our own.

  • Pamela,

    How glad I am I found your place through Jeff Goins’ writing class. What can I say besides I feel I know you in some small way? I connect with you, and how you see life – the world. I’m compelled now to subscribe. Looking forward to getting to know you better here. I’m new to the blogging and writing-out-in-the-open world, and you’ve helped me feel a little less alone. Thank you for your authenticity.

    • pamelahodges

      Hello Rachel, Thank you for reading my story. Thank you for subscribing. I look forward to reading more of your stories as well. It is a pleasure to meet you. I am glad you feel less alone. Sending you a hug.

  • What an apt analogy! We are all trying to get to the other side of the road and some days are better than others. How lucky we are when someone reaches down to help us. Thanks for sharing this reminder to believe and try.

    • pamelahodges

      Yes, believe and try. Thank you.

  • Jaana

    I believe you have already successfully crossed many roads as I have had the privilege of reading your blog. Don’t ever stop believing in yourself! Your talent in writing alone is special! Thank you for sharing your life with us.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Jaana.

  • Judy C.

    I think there are many times in our lives when we feel like that frog. How many times have I started over or not gotten very far before I find myself back at step one. Thanks for sharing your frog story and the analogy with your own life. Believe in yourself because you are special.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Judy.

  • nanc

    Really very clever. I was laughing thinking about you stopping. I also identify with your awesome line ending with the pen click. xo nanc

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Nancy. Luckily no one drove by as I knelt on the road taking photographs of the frog in the headlights of my car.

  • I still have your business card with that little drawing you did of the face………..you have soooooo many talents…….I just marvel at you!!!!! 🙂

    • pamelahodges

      Well, you are my mother. I have always felt encouraged by you. I love you Mom.

  • Caroline

    What a great post! It made me wonder how many times we don’t help the frogs get where they are going. thank you.

    • pamelahodges

      I hadn’t thought about how many frogs I may have discouraged from crossing the road. Words have so much power. Thank you for your insight.

  • This is a stunning metaphor, Pamela.

    “Believe in yourself.” It’s easier said than done. Perhaps you need to have a mantra that surrounds this concept that you tell yourself every time those voices from childhood creep in and tell you that you cannot do something. You are capable of anything you set your mind to.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Stacey for your encouragement. I am dreaming big dreams and setting my mind to them. I will hop right to it 🙂

  • terje

    What a switch. The post about the frog was already enjoyable to read and then you invited me as a reader to think deeper. Thank you.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Jerje.

  • What Elsie said. This was a powerful slice!

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Tara.

  • Elsie

    You touch so many with your words and insights. I love the way you craft and think, believe you do make a difference.

    • pamelahodges

      Good Morning Elsie. Thank you for your kind comments. Since March, you have faithfully read and encouraged me. I rode my bike on Saturday and thought of you as I looked on the side of the road for snakes. I did not see any animals, but did enjoy the dry leaves crunching under my wheels.

  • It’s a beautiful post, full of inspiration so now I hope you’ll believe your own words, too. I loved the story, and the photos. It’s easy really to give those words to others, and many struggle with believing themselves. I hope your writing will help Pamela. You just lived such an ah ha moment, so now it’s the jumping off point (ha-is that a bad pun?). Best to you!

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Linda. I am believing in myself. The frog I met last week has really helped me to see what I have been doing. Yes, an ah ha moment. Oh, now I get it, the jumping off point. I am a frog. You are too funny. I love the pun. Just a bit slow here. I must be a toad, they are slower to jump.

  • Believe in yourself, Pamela. Those of us who read your writing week by week believe in you. You express things that we, too, think about deep down, but have not put into words. You amaze us with unique insights. You point us to Truth. Believe.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Diane. Thank you for believing in me, and for reading what I write. I haven’t found the frog yet, but I am walking across the road. I am taking a writing class, Tribewriters.com by Jeff Goins, and working on some writing projects.