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Today I cried


I  have never cried for eight year old me.
Today I cried.
Today I cried for the girl with the pink bedspread.
Today I cried for Annalisa and Pilar and Shelley
and Lisa and Renee and Robin.
Today I cried for you.
I cried tears for the sad in me
and the sad in you.

When I read your comments on the stories I wrote, I cried.
I cried because you said I was brave.
I cried because you said I was strong.
I cried because you said I was beautiful.
I cried because you prayed for me.
I cried because you believed me.

There is healing in tears.
The shortest verse in the bible is: “Jesus wept.” John 11:35
Jesus wept for me.
Jesus wept for you.

I pray for you to heal.
I pray for you to smile.
I pray for you to feel joy.
I pray for you to feel brave.
I pray for you to feel strong.
I pray for you to feel beautiful.
Because, you are.

Now, you just have to believe.


About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

You are an artist. Yes, you are. Really.

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  • renee

    I found this today–I thought of you.
    1 Peter 5:10 You will have to suffer only for a little while: the God of all grace who called you to eternal glory in Christ will restore you, he will confirm, strengthen, and support you.

    be blessed. I lift you up in prayer–above all that is ugly–so that you can get a better look at the beauty you create.

    • Thank you Renee for the bible verse. I appreciate your prayers.

  • Sweet and touching!
    I cry all the time! It’s healing!

  • Thank you for the poem, Pamela, and thank you for reminding us of the profound truth in the Bible’s shortest verse.

  • Pamela, your poem says it all really, you are courageous & tough to tell this story. I love the ending of your other post & I don’t like secrets either! It’s so good to tell, I hope it’s freeing for you. It’s the “Uncle” I want to tell that he is a coward to take such advantage of a young child. Thank you for this.

  • It was time to cry….and I did too…for you… and for the many others…some who have not yet cried. Your story will be forever in my heart.

  • Judy C.

    Your words brought tears to my eyes and many thoughts flowed through my mind. Crying is cleansing and helps us to relieve some of the pressure we are under. Keep believing and praying. Thank you for sharing.

  • nanc

    I spent the day crying…worried about my grand daughter in the hospital in a 3rd world country and so so sad because a co-worker just lost her husband suddenly…some days it is just so sad and my heart hopes for heaven. Thank you for your writing. Xo

    • pamelahodges

      I pray for healing for your granddaughter in the hospital. I pray for comfort for you. All my children are still at home. I can’t imagine how I will feel when they leave.

  • All those things people said “I cried because you said I was brave.
    I cried because you said I was strong.
    I cried because you said I was beautiful.
    I cried because you prayed for me.
    I cried because you believed me”

    They are true.

    Thinking of you and praying.
    You are amazing.

  • Michelle

    A beautiful beginning of healing. To cry. Letting go. Your poem that also brought tears to my eyes. Now, all those things that you are praying for, you must also pray for yourself. And you just have to BELIEVE.

  • We are touched in so many ways: good and bad. This post was a good touch. Thank you for your tears and your prayers. I was touched deeply.

    I am writing about an incident- no a lifetime of bad touches that ended indirectly to my cousin’s death. Her funeral is tomorrow.

    I would like you to read my draft when it is completed.

    • pamelahodges

      I would be honored to ready your draft. Thank you for trusting me.

  • Stacey

    If anything is going to being you to tears, I’m glad it’s the support of this community.

  • These words…beautiful…bless-ed. Smiling with my hand on my heart.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Stacey. I am smiling reading your comment.