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Am I beloved?

I am writing at Lisa-Jo Bakers Blog with Five Minute Friday.  You are suppose to write for five minutes unedited, with the word of the day. Today’s word is Beloved.

Beloved

The word beloved is on page 137 of my dictionary. It is six down from the word belong.  Am I beloved? Does someone love me greatly?

I know Jesus made me and loves me. I don’t often love myself. Who do I belong to? When I look in the mirror, I see a face. Who’s face is it? Am I happy to see that face?

I miss my mother, I have not seen her in over three years. I want to put my head in her lap and have her sing the song she made up for me when I was a baby. I want to hold my mother in my lap and rock her, and sing to her. She is 80 years old. I miss her. Her hair is white under her brown highlights.

I love my mother.

I love my children, and I love my husband.

I don’t always feel loveable. Like God dropped a stitch when he made me. He knit me together in my mothers womb, but he forgot the pattern that day. He was suppose to knit a stitch and he purled instead.

I will be content with who I am. I will smile and feel the love of Jesus who doesn’t make mistakes.

He didn’t really drop a stitch. I know that.

Now I just have to believe it.

Do you ever feel like your knitting pattern was off the day you were made? 

About Pamela Hodges

My name is Pamela Hodges. I am a writer and an artist. I write to encourage and to bring laughter. I paint cats, draw cartoons and write books for children and grown ups.

You are an artist. Yes, you are. Really.

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  • You are most definitely beloved by your husband.

  • La McCoy

    Beautiful.

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you La.

  • This is lovely, Pamela. I like that you pointed out the similarity between “beloved” and “belong” — close in so many ways. It reminds me of a saying my mother often repeated to me growing up: “You belong to Jesus. He’ll never let you down and he’ll never let you go.”

    • pamelahodges

      Thank you Erin. I like what your mother told you. I will have to remember that.