Reba McEntire helped me clean under my fridge
Reba McEntire helped me clean under my fridge.
Yes, she did. She really did. And she helped me wash the floors under my washing machine too.
Reba sang to me, “Who I am is who I want to be. I am a survivor.”
Well, she didn’t sing just to me. She sang to everyone who watches the reruns of her television show, “Reba.”
My youngest daughter was watching television, and I sat down on the couch with her for a few minutes. I had never watched the beginning of the show “Reba” before.
Reba sang, “Who I am is who I want to be. I am a survivor.”
And the first thing I thought was: Can I say that?
Can I honestly say, “Who I am is who I want to be”?
No, I can’t.
Can you honestly say, “Who I am is who I want to be”?
I used the word, “honestly” because often I am not honest with myself. I pretend everything is going great. I don’t want to think about how I really feel. It is easier to brush my teeth, comb my hair, put on an old pair of jeans and pretend all is well, than it is to think about my life.
Sitting on the coach with my daughter and listening to a situation comedy with a laugh track actually helped me to think about who I am.
This is Who I want to be.
I want to be the kind of woman who makes sure there is no dust under her fridge. I would walk by the fridge and think to myself, I am the kind of woman who doesn’t clean under her fridge. And then I would feel embarrassed.
I want to be the kind of woman who can hold her head up high as she walks down the aisle at the grocery store. Knowing deep down that I am worthy because the coils under my refrigerator are dust free.
And I am the kind of woman who cleans under her washing machine. That is who I am.
And today when I woke up. I thought, Who am I?
Am I who I want to be?
No, I am not.
I base my self-worth on my ability to keep my house clean.
We are worthy even if we never clean under our fridge or under our washing machines. Our self-worth is not based on our ability to keep our house clean.
Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends. ― Aberjhani, The River of Winged Dreams
How about you? Will you dare to love yourself?
Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we will every do.
Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection
Are you who you want to be? Maybe Reba McEntire can help you clean under your fridge too. And if you never clean under your fridge, if you die with your fridge coils covered in dust, you life still has value.
Own your story. Be brave. Hold your head high as you walk down the aisle in the grocery store.
We are more than the dirt under our refrigerators.
As always I love to hear from you. Click on here if you would like to leave a comment. I really want to know how you are doing. Are you who you want to be?
p.s. I did clean under my fridge. What is under your fridge?
About Pamela Hodges
I write slice of life stories to help you know you are loved, valuable and worthy just as you are. I am a writer, an artist, and a cleaner of seven litter boxes. I live in Pennsylvania with one husband, four cats, one dog and two birds.