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Reba McEntire helped me clean under my fridge


Reba McEntire helped me clean under my fridge.

Yes, she did. She really did. And she helped me wash the floors under my washing machine too.

Reba sang to me, “Who I am is who I want to be. I am a survivor.”

Well, she didn’t sing  just  to me. She sang to everyone who watches the reruns of her television show, “Reba.”

My youngest daughter was watching television, and I sat down on the couch with her for a few minutes. I had never watched the beginning of the show “Reba” before.

Reba sang, “Who I am is who I want to be. I am a survivor.”

And the first thing I thought was:  Can I say that?

Can I honestly say, “Who I am is who I want to be”?

No, I can’t.

Can you  honestly say, “Who I am is who I want to be”?

I used the word, “honestly” because often I am not honest with myself. I pretend everything is going great. I don’t want to think about how I really feel. It is easier to brush my teeth, comb my hair, put on an old pair of jeans and pretend all is well, than it is to think about my life.

Sitting on the coach with my daughter and listening to a situation comedy with a laugh track actually helped me to think about who I am.

This is  Who I want to be.

 I want to be the kind of woman who makes sure there is no dust under her fridge. I would walk by the fridge and think to myself,  I am the kind of woman who doesn’t clean under her fridge. And then I would feel embarrassed.

I want to be the kind of woman who can hold her head up high as she walks down the aisle at the grocery store. Knowing deep down that I am worthy because the coils under my refrigerator are dust free.

And I am the kind of woman who cleans under her washing machine. That is who I am.

And today when I woke up. I thought, Who am I? 

Am I who I want to be?

No, I am not.

I base my self-worth on my ability to keep my house clean.

We are worthy even if we never clean under our fridge or under our washing machines. Our self-worth is not based on our ability to keep our house clean.

Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends. ― Aberjhani, The River of Winged Dreams

How about you? Will you dare to love yourself?

Loving ourselves through the process of owning our story is the bravest thing we will every do.
Brené BrownThe Gifts of Imperfection

Are you who you want to be? Maybe Reba McEntire can help you clean under your fridge too. And if you never clean under your fridge, if you die with your fridge coils covered in dust, you life still has value.

Own your story. Be brave. Hold your head high as you walk down the aisle in the grocery store.

We are more than the dirt under our refrigerators.

As always I love to hear from you. Click on here if you would like to leave a comment. I really want to know how you are doing. Are you who you want to be?

p.s. I did clean under my fridge. What is under your fridge?




About Pamela Hodges

I write slice of life stories to help you know you are loved, valuable and worthy just as you are. I am a writer, an artist, and a cleaner of seven litter boxes. I live in Pennsylvania with one husband, four cats, one dog and two birds.

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  • Thanks for sharing that! I am more than what I do. I needed that message. 🙂

    • You are very welcome Erika. I hope today you felt like yourself. Who you want to be.

  • Kathy Storrie

    You could write about dental floss and it would be interesting and funny with a lesson at the end. I could picture you walking down the grocery store isle with your head held high wearing a crown. I finally cleaned the grill under my fridge this week and I’m using the dirt to germinate seeds. Keep those stories coming!

    • Kathy,
      Please let me know how the seed germination is going. I think I had enough dirt for a whole garden.
      Thank you for your encouragement. Friends really do make a difference. Thank you.

  • Michelle Salerno

    I love how your mind works…you are a beautiful woman with a beautiful soul wonderfully created by our Lord! I myself havent cleaned under the fridge since I moved here in Dec. I guess I should. We, both of us, can not let what we think others think about us, define us.

    • Hello Michelle,
      Have you ever heard the saying, “What others think of me is none of my business?”
      I think about it way too much.
      That is the only reason I finally cleaned my carpets.
      Would you like me to help you pull out your fridge? Dust doesn’t define us, it just makes it harder for the fridge to keep our milk cold.
      Hugs to you. And thank you.

  • Pamela,
    Not only is there dust under my fridge, I believe there is a dust monster under my bed. And you know what, it’s okay. I’ll get to it, or not. It doesn’t define me.

    Loved your post.

    • Hello Anne,
      Yes, dust doesn’t define us. And really, what is the difference between dirt in a garden and dirt under our fridges? Nothing really.
      Thank you.

  • Kaye

    Pamela, I love how you write. You are so real and fun and funny. When I read your stuff, I often wish that I had thought to write it.

    • Oh Kaye,
      I was just sitting her thinking how my writing is so lame. I don’t write about how to cook a better chicken, or how to write a better headline. Thank you Kaye for encouraging me.
      Will you share something you wrote? Then I can wish I had written it. Then we can be even.
      Hugs to you.

      • Kaye

        I guess my URL doesn’t show up when I comment. But since you asked, here it is: wonderingjourney.blogspot.com

  • Berdeane Bodley

    This is the 2nd time I have tried, and yes, Pamela, I am exactly who I want to be, & no dust under my fridge or washer……..ha ha

    • Hello Berdeane,
      You are exactly who you want to be, and I am glad of that. Because you are my mom. Mother, I think all of the dust run away when they realize they have landed in your house.

  • La McCoy

    Yes in three years Edel has made quite a contribution to the collection under the fridge. last summer my baby came. I could not get him to move the fridge so i could clean under it but he did vacuum under it. I am grateful. Maybe some one else will come and vacuum under it this year. Love you.

    • Hello La,
      Pooh would like to come and move your fridge and clean under it. It may take him several years to walk there. But he does want to help.
      Love you too.

  • Michelle Crooker

    While I haven’t looked since we got the fridge three years ago I imagine that under my fridge is a lovely little family of dust bunnies. At this point they will have many generations, a town hall, a library and a cute little playground built out of lost Lego’s and fridge magnets. I am happy if my counters don’t have stuff stuck to them and I let the bunnies live in peace and harmony.

    • Michelle,
      Your home is always full of love. I always feel welcome when I come to visit. May we always value our friendship more than we worry about the village of dust bunnies under our fridges.