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My gas tank is full but I am not moving

Tonight when I came home I sat in the driveway in my van and stared at the lights on the dashboard. The gas tank was almost full, but the speedometer was at zero.

A full tank of gas going nowhere


Full of gas, but going nowhere.

Full of ideas, but not writing.

Feeling like the car sitting in the driveway. The speedometer on zero.

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.
― Maya Angelou, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

A writer who is not writing.

A writer who is collecting books on writing, thinking about writing, avoiding writing, talking about writing, singing about writing, dreaming about writing, and writing about writing.

But not writing.

Is there anyone else who has a gas tank full of gas but they are not moving?

Is there anyone else who wants to stop collecting books on writing and write?

Is there anyone else?


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About Pamela Hodges

I write slice of life stories to help you know you are loved, valuable and worthy just as you are. I am a writer, an artist, and a cleaner of seven litter boxes. I live in Pennsylvania with one husband, four cats, one dog and two birds.

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  • Sue Sutherlin

    Wait . . . I’m confused . . . you’re not writing? What am I reading? What is your writing dream? You write frequently . . . if not every day, pretty close (I confess, I don’t read it every day, but when I do, I guess I make up for it by reading a bunch of articles!). Your WRITING touches many lives . . . I know that from the comments that follow your WRITING. What you WRITE is full of life! <3

    • Oh Sue,
      You are so perceptive. Yes, if I write on my blog, I am writing. I hadn’t written in weeks and then started to write every day again as part as a writing challenge to write every day in the month of March.

      My, “not writing,” is not writing a book I have outlined, and not finishing a book I have written, but I have to draw the illustrations for it and format it to publish it.

      My writing dream is not getting done because I spend so much time reading about how to do it, but not doing it.

      Thank you for your kind words Sue.

  • Teresa R

    I am so afraid that no one will read what I have to write, so I don’t write. I know I need to start, but I just don’t start

    • Teresa,
      Start today with one sentence. And tomorrow add another one.
      I understand the fear. Perhaps write for yourself to start with. Let your stories breathe.

  • La McCoy

    So much to write. So little time!

    • La,
      Write a little each day, and soon the elephant will be eaten.

      • La McCoy

        You are right. I do.

  • DA Schuhow

    I always thought to myself “First, throw up on the page” and wouldn’t let myself think beyond that.

    • Oh DA,
      I love that. Today I shall vomit on the page. Not literally. It would be so hard to clean off my keyboard.

  • Berdeane Bodley

    Sweetheart you don’t have to write every day if you don’t feel like it, & look you even wrote when you said your gas tank was full & you weren’t going anywhere, that in itself was very insightful……..you wrote about not writing…….hmmm!!! Besides today is Friday the 13th!! I love you………

    • Hi Mom,
      Yes, I wrote about writing. And, now to write the untold stories.
      Hugs to you Mom,
      Love your daughter.

  • Tammy Schaefer

    Oh yes, Pamela, I’ve been there! For me it was about waiting for the perfect time and writing the first draft perfectly. Recently, it dawned on me that I just need to start. It doesn’t need to be a masterpiece right out of the gate. Also, reading helped me. Reading others blogs, reading about writing and reading for fun. It refueled my passion and I’m writing again! Thanks for sharing and helping me know, I’m not the only one! 🙂

    • Good Morning Tammy,
      Yes, you are not the only one. Thank you for sharing, now I know I am not the only on sitting in my driveway with a full tank of gas.
      And, what a good reminder. Our writing doesn’t have to be perfect. We have to write now, and edit later.

  • Pat Meyers

    Good words. Well said. Thanks.

    • Hello Pat,
      Thank you. Hey, and Have a nice day!

  • Kaye

    Great illustration, Pamela. Yep, I know the feeling. Thanks for the good reminder.

    • Hello Kaye,
      You are very welcome. I hope you write your story. And, I hope you have a nice day.