The frog in my headlights

 

The frog hopped in front of my van as my headlights came around the corner. It was dark. No streetlights. Did the frog think it was morning?  Was the frog trying to cross the road?

I had to stop. How could I drop my daughter off at  a church program where she is memorizing bible verses,  learning to be kind, and then drive over a frog?  I picked up the frog and placed him in the grass  on the side of the road  he had hopped from. As I drove away, I thought to myself, “I am so helpful. I saved a frog’s life.” Then I realized that I didn’t help the frog get to  where he wanted to go. I didn’t take him to the other side of the road. I didn’t help him cross the road. I put him back where he started.

 

I am the frog.

I have roads I want to cross.  Obstacles to overcome.

I keep putting myself back on the side of road where I started.

I want to go back and find the frog and apologize.

“Excuse me Frog. Are you the frog that was trying to cross the road last week?  Remember the white van?  The lady with the camera?  The lady that put you back where you started?  Well, that was me. I’m sorry I didn’t help you to the other side of the road.”

I want to apologize to myself.

“I am sorry I do not believe in you. I am sorry I believe the lies you heard as a child.

I am sorry I keep you from crossing the road.”

I quote Philippians 4:13 to my friends. I cheer them on. ” You can do this! You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.”

I believe my friends can do all things.

I do not believe  in myself.

Some days all I can do is click the end of my pen.

It is raining outside.

I will go and find the frog.

We will cross the road together.

I can do all things.

I  will believe.

I will try.